When's it enough?

When’s enough? When is it just too much? When can you say it’s just enough? When can you just let up? SO many things are crying for our attention - from the trendy crisis in Africa to the homelessness in your own town. So what do you choose? What do you do? The rumbling in your heart quickens and the tired ache of your body screams. Maybe we are asking all the wrong questions and coming from a place that will always leave us weary. More times than not we ask the question “What do I need to do?” When I ask for what “I need” I ask from a place of need, want and selfishness, not a place of health. The question should be “What does God want me to do?” The answer can only come from an all knowing, whole, and healed source. I ask God. Then, when I ask God, I can’t seem to explain my perspective clearly so instead I wander into excuses to describe my heart condition, then in time I get… what were you made to do?

The flood of trite answers like glorify you God and share You with the world Lord, wear thin as time reveals the content of my heart, which just wants to escape the light of truth. A truth that simply says I am to do and be what His hand has created me to be and nothing else. A simple answer at first yet the consequences are profound for I must now know Him who created me and seek His counsel on what I am to be. And yes we all try to ask in prayer, but do we seek… relentlessly? Do we seek our fulfillment like we seek our pleasure or our
comfort? The answer is often no and our struggles with the greater scheme of life often is left behind in a commercial break on Gray’s Anatomy. Yet the questions of purpose still come up in the most vulnerable times to read your heart and once again stir up the question… what are you going to do?

If you will spend the time and courage it takes to sit in stillness and see what God has put in you. I think you’ll find a wondrous light, or lens to see all of life through so that you can make sense of it all. I won’t be a part of saving the whole world and making a difference in the lives of every human on this planet- but I will change a few. Maybe I will not solve all the world’s problems but yet the gifts I have and the passion I have fit in this set of needs and I can make a difference there. I will make a difference there.

If asking what I am leads me to know who I am then what I do serves the person I am created to be. I can move and serve within the parameters of where I fit and the issues I understand and the people that also resonate with the same issues I do. Interesting how when we ask for answers from the source of truth and health we get answers that fit who we are. So now I pray for the late night commercial with Sally Struthers and the needy children but I know my calling, I know God will provide for them as He has provided for me. I also openly enjoy the fact that we are all a choir, singing our part as loud as we can to win over those with our calling and yet walk in harmony with those who have different parts or causes in the song to fulfill what God has asked us to do in this lifetime.